Hey Guys.
I usually write mystery,crime,and action.But recently I took a stab at romance and I just want some opinions.It may not be very good but what the hell I tried.So anyway have a look and please feel free to give me constructive criticism.
Thanks!
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Eyes screwed up like a baby, Cate pushed her blonde curls from her eyes blindly, then opened them to focus down at the little white stick in her pale shaking hands. The breath in her throat was suspended as her brain read the answer she had been dreading; peripheral vision noting the hazy blur of identical white sticks littering the ground around her feet .They all carried the same blue line that shone ominously in her vision like pinstriped curses. Positive.
Cate barely held back the tears that threatened to overflow,as the tight sickening feeling of anxiousness in the pit of her stomach broke free and despair flowed freely through her,causing her body to shake with heartbreaking sobs.This was a nightmare.
She couldn’t believe it.She was having Cole McAllister baby.They hated each other.They had done since they were 16 years old….or at least he had…….
Their fathers had been best friends,inseparable since childhood and when her father,Micheal Becket passed away,James McAllister insisted Cate and her mum move in with him and his family.James was amazing,he was a second father to Cate yet still giving her space and understanding that he would never replace Micheal.And he did all that while still managing to be a father to his own offspring. Cate grew up with his children,two boys and a girl,all of them so alike him in many ways.Cole,Zach and Clarissa.
Zach the eldest,like his sister was the image of his father he had James gentle understanding of all living things and he had his father patiences.
Clarissa was his only daughter,and she held his intelligence,his love of socialising and being in a crowd,living life to its fullest and not giving a damn about self image.
And then there was Cole,he fascinated her.Tall,with sharp disguised features,a straight nose,high cheekbones and soft pillowy lips.He had long shoulder length chocolate brown hair,that for some reason,no matter how much he tried to tame it,was always messy.He had his mothers exotic french looks and her temperament,he had his fathers head for business not that it interested him much.But in personality he was unlike either of his parents.
It was with the Mc Allister Cate truly found home.If she had a particularly trying day at school Crystal was always their,waiting for her in the kitchen,casually chatting to cook about the evening meal.She would ask Mrs.Wade to cut Cate a slice of her delicious chocolate cake and she herself would mix her a hot cup of tea.Then she would sit her down and ask her all about it.
Clarissa acted in ever the big sister manner when Cate hit puberty,giving her clothes and make up,advice on boys and how to talk to them.
Zach was her big brother always protecting her,shielding her from hurt and making sure if anyone did slip under his barrier and hurt her,they paid for it.
Cole.He was so mysterious and different.Sometimes he would ignore her and other times they would talk and talk for hours on end and she would pour her heart and soul out to him and he would understand.
When she was sixteen,they were walking home from school together.Cole was two years older than her and he would finish in two months.
It was a long walk and Cragnoch Manor was in the heart of the country side.It was a constant blur of green.Tall deciduous trees towered over everything,bushy hedges and remnants of broken stone walls littered the rural surroundings.And the sound of streams and rivers flowing was easily heard if you listened.
It was a bitter Scottish winter and Cole took of his wooly black scarf and wrapped it around her.
“Thanks,”she chattered,tucking her head into his chest,trying to block out some of the cold.
She felt his chest rumble with his deep laughter and she mock pouted.
“What do think your laughing at Mr.McAllister?”she asked him,arching her eyebrow.
He smiled and ran a hand threw her blonde curls,speckled with snow.
“You look like a snow princess Catey,”he said smiling at her and drawing her closer to him.
He glanced upward and shook his head
“I wouldn’t say we will have school tomorrow Cate,……it looks like we will have trouble getting out of the house,never mind getting to school.Lets wait until it eases off a bit before continuing,your turning blue,”he added looking at her concerned.
He led her into a small wooden shack which the games keeper used to live in years ago.He planted her firmly in the armchair and wrapped her up in blankets and his gloves.
“Now stay their and wait,I’ll be two minutes,I’m just going to get some wood and light the fire,”
That was fifteen minutes ago and Cate was getting worried,just as she was contemplating going out to look for him,he arrived back holding a load of logs.
Within minutes their was a blazing fire in front of them and they were snuggled up together on the armchair.
He cupped her face in his hands and blew on her nose to heat her up
“Well someone thawing out,he said smirking.
Suddenly Cate found herself transfixed on his lips,and their was a tension in the air.She leaned in and rested her forehead against his.
He gazed at her then drew her closer.
“I want to kiss you Catey,…can I kiss you Catey?”he asked gazing at her with his chocolate brown eyes.
She made a giggly choking sound,”Be my guest” she muttered.
His lips captured hers and Cate felt a number of sensations.She felt a wave of serenity wash over her,a feeling of safeness and contentedness settled on her.But at the same time she felt her heart beat accelerated and she never felt more aware of herself as she did now.She felt her breasts crushed against his rock hard chest and she felt a faint stirring in the pit of her stomach.She was aware of how his hands were entwined in hers and how he was nibbling so gently on her lip
That was her first kiss with Cole;actually if she was being truthful it was her first kiss with anyone.They had shared many stolen kisses after that,at night,when they were alone in the house,at the shack.She had fallen for him hard and on the eve of her seventeenth birthday he took her trust and betrayed her more than she though possible.
The time was eleven fifteen in the evening and Cate was in her old and very well worn cotton shorts and white tank top,he said he loved her in them,that they brought out her eyes and made her look very womanly.She was waiting for him to come to her sh waited and waited but he did not come.She was slightly perturbed by this as he never missed a night with her.
When he did come,hours later she was asleep
He shook her slightly and then kissed her forehead,then he held her hands.She woke up drowsily and instantly registered all was not well
She knew by his face that something was wrong,his colour was pallid and he was gnawing on his lower lip at an alarming rate.And yet she waited for him to tell her,not pushing him.
“Cate,…..I don’t know how to say this darling,…..I don’t want to hurt you Catey………..I don’t think we should do this anymore.”he said ,”I’m….falling for a girl at university.”he gazed at her intently waiting for her response.
Cate grew numb and withdrew from him,”Oh,…you are?
I-”tears threatened”I didn’t know you were seeing anyone,..I-have you slept with her,?”she asked,knowing it was silly of her to ask because if he gave the wrong answer her heart would shatter.
He hung his head and no more words were needed.
“Well then,..there is nothing I can do to change your mind Cole?,”she asked looking up at him with sorrow filled eyes.He shook his head and looked away from her.
“You can go to her now Cole,”she said,her voice wobbling,”I hope she makes you very happy darling,you deserve happiness,and you wont have to hide her” she said,..holding his hand.”You wont have to be ashamed anymore about us,you wont need to confined in me anymore,you have her,she’ll be yours and I-I,……………..wont be”
She kissed him one last time.His lips felt soft and warm against hers and parted for her easily.A horrible sense of loss shot through her as he held her.She knew this was the last time,Cole was notorious for making his mind up and sticking to it.He always had the most persevernce.Tears spilled down her cheeks staining his and a small sob wracked her petite frame.Then he detatched her from his shirt and left.
Cate put the hurt behind her,hard to do seeing as their was a gaping hole now occupying the place were her heart had been.But she had watched her mother slip into a deep dark depression when her father passed and she was determined not to let that happen to her and she was determined not the let herself go the same way.
Cate moved on with her life,…and she only ever saw Cole at family occasions and christmas,were he avoided any contact and conversion and when he had to talk to her it or unattached voice,not Cole.
She moved to San Francisco when she completed her arts degree.She bought a beautiful studio on Keats St and she had a little client base.She had her own business and her own apartment her own life!
Hers and nobody else,nobody there to hurt her or make her feel small and unwanted.And then the apartment directly across from hers went up for sale.Nothing unusual right?
But when Cate went out to sit on her balcony for a drink one summer evening and found Cole barbecuing on the balcony opposite she got the shock of her life.And now fast forward a few months and here she was,…
Pregnant,………………..
James and Crystal were opening a new hotel in Paris,the biggest of the McAllister chain or so Zach had said last time they had spoken,and Cate was lying on her sun lounger basking in pure relaxation at twilight time.
Cole came out onto the balcony and Cate sat up immediately,not because he was there,but because something was wrong.He gripped the black wrought iron railing,so hard that his knuckles turned white and he stared right at her with those penetrating eyes.He was as white as a ghost and his face was tear stained.And he called her.Not a shout,not a whisper,her name,Cate,in his quiet beautiful gravely voice.
She stood up instantly panicking,was it her mother?
Did James call him and ask him to break the news,…?
She began to tremble,”I’ll come right over Cole,”she grabbed her coat, a silky blue affair with a frill on the sleeve,
and flew down the stairs,ignoring the elevator in favour of the quick option,almost bashing into Maria Fox,her elderly neighbour.
“Cate dear,where are you heading dressed like that,?”she asked.
Cate paused for a second and looked down at her clothes.A silk pair of grey shorts and a grey singlet top.She shrugged.He’d seen her in less when they were kids.
“Out Mrs.Fox,don’t worry if you hear someone in later its just me”,she said hastily making her way out the door.
She ran across the street breathing hard from anticapation and Cole buzzed her in.As she stood out
side his apartment she prepared herself for the worst.Her mother had never really gotten out of the depression after her dad had died and had tried to kill herself twice before,maybe this time she had succeeded.
The door opened and there he was,the nearest she had been to him in ten years,and despite the situation her heart fluttered at the sight of him,the clean manly smell of him,the big kind green eyes that at this moment in time radiated concern,pity and grief.
Cate began to shake and her eyes swelled with tears,”She’s dead isn’t
she,?” she asked him,looking up into to those eyes she fell for when she was sixteen years old.
He nodded his own eyes clouded with tears,”Catey I’m so sorry,”he answered and enveloped her in his arms.At some point they moved inside,she couldn’t remember when,she was in this cocoon of numbness.All she acknowledged was his arms and his warmth.Breathing in his clean soapy sent,she felt as if she was back at Cragnoch Manor in Scotland.
“I-,I didn’t go see her at christmas,..I made excuses not to go home,.I never-I wasn’t there for her when she needed me Cole,”she sobbed into his chest.
He made gentle soothing noises and rubbed her back,a very intimate gesture and it soon became much more intimate.She raised her eyes to meet his and focused in on those pillowy lips.All she knew was that she had to kiss him,her hands itched to touch him and hold him.She leaned in and pressed her lips too his throat and he let out a muffled moan and tipped his head back.
His hands were everywhere and he slowly lifted her singlet over her head to reveal her bare breasts.Cate’s imageination was working overboard and lots of erotic fantasies flew through her mind.He leaned down and captured a rosy nipple in his mouth and she groaned and entwined her fingers in his long hair.She was not a virgin,but he was making her feel things she had never felt for anyman and he was hardly touching her!.He did the same to the other nipple and then kissed his way down to the waist band of her shorts,slowly he peeled them of two and grinned wickedly at her.
He gave a brieif moan of staisfaction as he realised how wet and needy she was was for him.
“Your beautiful”he whispered to her teasing her with his tongue.
She let out a long ragged moan,desperate for him to explore her deeper parts.
Then his head disappeared between her legs and she lost all rational thought.She was burning all over with desire,and she felt as if she had been deprived of sex for years and now he was breaking free.The last thing she remembered him saying before he entered her was something about always needing this,..but she was to far gone at that point for it to register.
In one quick thrust he was inside her and she was on another plain,extascy was all she felt and she felt lots of it.
He teased her with long agonizingly slow strokes then withdrawing and teasing her with his mouth.He repeated this action until she cried out for him to take her fully.
Finally he entered her one last time and rocked back and forth going deeper and deeper until she climaxed powerfully and he exploded inside her,his hot juices running down her thigh.They were one.Joined by their most sesitive spots,the most vunerable parts of them entwined.
He fell asleep that night on her stomach and she held him close while she grieved for her mother.It took her hours to sleep,thoughts jumbling through her confused head.When she did fall asleep morning came to early.Cole was up and already dressed,his eyes distant and guarded.
“Cate,I’ve booked you a flight to Scotland and Zach will meet you at the airport,I’ll be over for the funeral,”he said handing her clothes and a jacket of his.
Catw didnt know what to think.Last night he held her and taken her with so such urgency and now he was rejecting her like a regreted one night stand,who wasnt worth anything to him.
She gatherd her clothes and got dressed quicklily avoiding eye contact with him and mumbling her pathetic thanks for previous evening.
And that was it.She went home and buried her mother and he was at the funeral,avoiding her at all costs.They were back to square one and she grieved for him all over again because she had lost him a second time
She was pregnant,…………….
She’d have to tell him.He’d hated her,he wouldn’t want to raise a baby with her.A baby.Her baby.Their baby.
She raised her hand a touched the small mound on her tummy. How would he feel to know she was carrying his child?
Would he resent her for taking away the special title that he was reserving for the woman he would take as his wife?
She wasn’t sure why he made love to her then rejected her,maybe ,…he was overwhelmed by losing his godmother as she was by losing her mum.
In any case he had made it clear that it was a mistake.
She rubbed her stomach.A costly one.
She sat up and wandered over to her balcony and saw him through his window reading something.Concentrating hard on it.
She realised with ache how much she loved him and how much he didn’t want her.She wished she understood why he couldnt love her.She couldnt understand why he would need to fake such emotion.Why need would do that to her.He wasnt a cruel person she knew that.
She’d have to tell him,..now,..was her only choice as he was out so much during the week it was very hard to catch him at home
Her hands trembled furiously as she picked up the phone and dialed his number.She had to redial three times before she got it right.Then hungs up twice,on the last run she actually spoke to him.
When he picked up he was laughing at something and Cates heart gave a little lurch when she heard it.
“Hello,Cole Mc Allister here,”his sandy voice floated through her ear.
“Hello Cole,it’s Cate,…”she repleyed her voice wobbling slightly.
Instantly his voice lost it’s pleasant tone,it grew cold and distant,guarded even.
“Oh,..Cate..can I help you,?”
“I need to talk to you Cole,it’s serious,I’m coming over”,and with that she put the phone down and grabbed her coat.She was surprised at herself for being so forthright,but glad,this was serious.He was going to be a father and he had to know.She just prayed that she didn’t lose her nerve.
When he opened the door he eyes scanned her body and widened at her stomach.Then his eyes reached hers and all he needed to know was answered.
He ran a hand through his hair and his eyes looked haunted
“It’s mine isn’t it Cate,isn’t it?,”he said plonking himself down on the couch.
Cate stood in the door unsure if he wanted her in his apartment and nodded.
“Your going to be a daddy Cole”.
